Dad, I got my degree
Hey Dad, guess what?
Your girl got her master's degree
I dreamt of you holding my hand
Walking down the isle with me when I first got into this school
And that morning I thought about it
And I hoped you'd hold my hand again through my defence
And I think you did
I hope you did
I made mum proud and all my sisters
It felt so good
Feeling like their sacrifices were kind of worth it
And they didn't regret sacrificing so much for me
I wish I had woken up with a memory of you
I hope I made you proud that day Even though I don't always
I am sure there is so much about me you'd disagree with
But I hope you'd still love me
And at least be proud about that degree
Can you believe it's one the scariest things I've done?
I never felt so insecure
Writing this, I felt the imposter syndrome
So strongly
But I did that
I got a good grade too
I don't know what happens after death
I've thought many times about joining you
If I could
To just have a chat
To just say the word "dad"
To hear you say "I love you"
I am truly sorry if I've not made you proud
You probably deserve so much better in a daughter
But I love you Dad
I wish I could hug you
Share my excitement with you
I don't know why I'm crying so much
Mum is incredible
My sisters are out of this world
I should be content
I am forever grateful
But I do miss you
I wish I at least had memories to hold me company
I love you Dad.