If you ever see him
*read while listening to "Minefields" by Faouzia*
Tell him I miss him
Tell him it wasn’t easy
Tell him I still question myself
Tell him I love him
And I’m not sure I’ll love someone else as much as I loved him
Tell him he was all I wanted and hoped for
Except he didn’t love me enough
He didn’t love me enough for me to know
He didn’t love me enough to make space for me in his life
Which I desperately needed
I wanted to be a priority because he was
I wanted to be number one, because he was
Tell him I’m sorry
Tell him I’m mad, sad and confused
Tell him I’ll be okay though
Tell him I want him to be happy and to thrive
Tell him I’ll always root for him
Tell him
While a small part of me hopes he never moves on
I strongly hope he’ll be the man I know he can be
I hate that we didn’t make it work
But I’m grateful for every second I spent with him
He might be my soulmate
He might not be
But one thing I know is
I love him
With everything I am.